19. Chapter 18 (1/2)
chapter 18
tess
and adam were both shocked not only with the news about monica and
andrew's marriage, but also about the little baby she was expecting.
if there was a greater purpose in all that it was not clear to them
yet. to start with, angels were not supposed to fall in love, and
none of them had ever experienced a human life the way they both had.
besides, so far, it was believed that they could not generate another
life.
but
monica and andrew were there to prove the opposite.
"i
wish i knew what to say... but... i can't... i'm as lost as you all
probably are..." adam was the first one to
eak the silence of
the room, and only then tess spoke again.
"never
in my whole existence i've seen something like this happen... and
you're right, adam... i'm lost... i'm completely lost..."
monica
covered her mouth with her hand, stifling another sob, and quickly
stood up, "i'm sorry..."
she
rushed upstairs and they heard the bedroom door close a second later,
and andrew elected not to go after her for a while, feeling like a
useless creature once he didn't have the answers she was certainly
looking for. the irish angel lay down in her bed and cried freely for
long painful minutes, terrified with the consequences of her latest
actions. "father... please tell me what's going to happen with
us now... to our baby... to our love..." she prayed, holding
onto a pillow.
downstairs,
tess
oke down the persistent silence and stood up from the
armchair. "if you two excuse me... i need to go somewhere
too..." right before she left, the supervisor took andrew's hand
and squeezed it, "but i'm coming back later, baby, i promise..."
adam,
on the other hand, stayed there and he and andrew went up to the
front porch, from where they saw tess' cadillac leaving. noticing how
his friend grabbed the wooden railing until his knuckles turned
white, he placed a supportive hand over his shoulder, "take at
ease, buddy... it's a tough moment, i know, but remember god's plan
is perfect... even though we cannot understand it at a first moment."
sighing
deeply, the blond angel turned to his co-worker with worry, anguish
and visible sadness. "i know, adam... but... if you ask me...
i'm not sure if i would give up my current life if requested so. the
fact is that i love what i have... the many blessings i have since
the day monica opened her eyes for the first time at that hospital,
all those months ago..."
"you
both really fell in love..."
"yes!
and i love her more than anything else in this world... on the day we
got married, even having no memory, i was sure that i had never been
that happy, and now i know it was true! and then, five months ago,
when i heard about her pregnancy, i even felt guilty for having so
much happiness while others had nothing... she's my wife, adam, and
she's expecting my child! that's a fact i don't ever want to change!"
the
other angel of death gave a long sigh and nodded his head, "you
know something, andrew? i don't know what the father's plan is yet,
but, somehow, i've always felt that what you and monica share, this
strong connection between you two, is so rare among angels, and it's
so special... all this must be a sign that nothing that's happened
lately is totally wrong..."
andrew
managed a small smile, "thanks... i... i'll go upstairs and see
her now... i may not know what to tell her, but i won't let her go
away from my arms until all this is solved..."
adam
also smiled, and patted him on the shoulder, "go ahead, buddy!
i'll go and find tess."
x
andrew
went up to their bedroom and found monica there, lying on their bed
and still crying softly. quietly, he sat down on the edge of the bed
and removed a few strands of her long auburn hair away from her face;
the soft movement of his fingers through her hair always
ought her
a comforting sensation. as he bent down and kissed her cheek, she
spoke for the first time, never turning her eyes away from the
window, and from the clouds that covered the sky outside.
"...i
wonder if we'll be angels again..." her voice was hoarse and
came out like a whisper.
"we are
angels, baby... our true nature will never change, i'm sure of that."
she
finally turned her eyes to him; all the fear and anguish written in
those sweet
own pools
eaking his heart. "and what will
happen to us now, andrew?"
she
desperately needed an answer and he could not deny her one. "well...
i guess that, eventually, we'll have to go back to our... 'normal'
life, as we are angels before anything else..."
a
sob escaped her as she searched for his green pools. "and how
could we give up our baby, andrew? how could we give up our love?"
"shh..."
andrew sat down next to her and gathered the sobbing angel in his
arms, kissing her forehead repeatedly. then, he placed his free hand
over monica's belly. "i would never be able to give up on the
most precious blessings i've ever been granted... never, angel!"
and
at that moment something amazing happened: both felt their baby
kicking for the first time.
"oh,
father!" she exclaimed, her voice thick with emotion, and also
placing her hand over her belly.
"see? it's
real... our baby is real!" andrew's
eyes clouded with tears at the little creature kicking the inside of
monica's belly, and moving as if announcing he or she would be there
soon, no matter what had happened. moved with emotion, and now with a
crying smile on his face, he bent down and kissed her belly softly,
once again with his heart filled with the so familiar happiness he'd
found next to the one he loved.
"hey! mommy and daddy are
here, little one! and we can 'hear' you..."
as the child kept on moving inside
her belly, monica caressed andrew's blond hair and both exchanged a
moved glance. "i may not be sure of what's gonna happen to us,
but there's one thing i'm certain, angel: us. we were meant to be...
my love for you, it'll never change, but it'll certainly grow
stronger each and every minute, through the centuries to come."
"i love you so much,
andrew..."
like they had done on that same
morning, the two angels held each other tightly, and remained like
that for a long, long time.
x
tess
spent some good hours inside a small chapel not far from monica and
andrew's house. sitting on the front pew, she spent long hours
praying and asking for guidance, as she didn't know what should be
done in that situation. angels were not created for that purpose.
falling in love, getting married and generating life - this was for
humans. yet, another thought crossed the supervisor's mind: how could
angels be denied those feelings if their own nature was a loving one?
love, in its purest form, was what she saw in monica and andrew's
eyes. besides this, they were god's children even before they were
god's servants, and a loving father would never punish his children
for holding on to a feeling that he himself had created - the most
beautiful feeling a living creature could hold towards another.
adam
ended up finding tess there, and sat down next to her. "no
answer yet?"
"i've
been praying and trying to understand all that's happened, adam. all
the time i spent here, i thought about my poor babies, and...
although i spent my entire existence believing nothing like this
would and could happen to an angel... when i look at monica and
andrew, i just can't help but to think they deserve a chance..."
"i
feel exactly the same, tess... those two love each other, and i can
tell you they won't give up on this love, even if they have to give
up being angels... and both choices are certainly very painful."
it
was at that very moment that a soft glow involved the two angels, and
they both could hear the father's answer: it was his plan that
andrew and monica got married and experienced a little bit of human
life. their angelic nature had never changed. they were and would
always be his angels, and he loved them so much, that on the day they
got married, on that same church, he himself was present, and cast
his blessings upon them.
"oh,
father... father... thank you! thank you so much!" tess' eyes
were filled with tears of emotion and happiness to know that her
angel babies would always remain like that.
"i
just wonder how happy andrew and monica will feel when they get the
news!" adam spoke, smiling
oadly, equally happy for his
friends.
at
that moment, two small objects suddenly materialized in their hands:
two little boxes, each of them containing a golden angel medal
inside, and each medal with tess' and adam's names carved on them.
"but
what can possibly..." tess' voice trailed off as she read her
own name and then adam's name on the other medal.
"i
guess it's a present, tess! a present for monica and andrew!"
"yes...
so what are you doing here? let's get back there, they need to know
what the father told us!
x
it was certainly a difficult day
for the couple of angels. monica and andrew spent long hours worrying
and wondering about their future and of their baby, and didn't even
feel like eating or talking or going outside. much to his insistence,
she left the bedroom to help him to prepare dinner, and she kept on
feeling the baby moving, and released a tear or a sob every time she
felt so, sure that no matter what happened to them, she would never
give up on their child.
"our little angel never stops
moving, right?" andrew asked, stopping his task to lay his hand
over her belly. she let out a sob and managed a bittersweet smile,
"no..."
as she covered his hand with her
much smaller one, monica looked up at him for a long moment, and the
blond angel tenderly caressed her cheek, lost in the spark of her sad
doe-like eyes. "you know when i first started loving you?"
"you... you've told me..."
"no... i was wrong... it
wasn't on the day you woke up at the hospital... it's probably the
only thing i was wrong about all this time... i fell in love with you
on the day tess introduced us... and you were mad at me because you
were jealous..." a small laughter escaped her, mixed with tears
that never stopped from falling. "you looked absolutely
lovely... but then... you always do, baby..."
"i just wonder if the father
had... had this in mind when he made our paths cross on that day..."
she said, with a hint of sadness covering her beautiful gaelic
features.
and it was at
that moment that they heard another familiar voice, "the father
had planned all this a long time ago, baby,