31. Chapter 31 (1/2)
an: hey there! i apologize again for me being so random with my updating and it being a long time in between them. i'm gonna try and update sooner, next time, no promises, though. i hope you can bear with me! i hope you're all doing great and that life is treating you well, talk to you soon! :)
we both leave the hug and he places a kiss right on the center of my forehead and i send him a smile before we both yawn.
"i know that is indeed early, but it's been a long day for the both of us. especially you, the birthday girl. how about we head up to bed?" he suggests and after i agree with a yawn he follows me up the flight carrying the box that corey the heavy sleeper dozes inside of.
paul sets him on the rug between the door that he shuts and the bed. he gets under the covers and so do i, and then he shuts off the lamp and moves over to me where i lay on the right side of the cozy bed.
"i know that i'm leaving you in a few days and that we won't get to see each other between now and then after tomorrow morning, but i'm not leaving you. i know that makes no sense and is contradicting, but i want you to know that. i'll send you letters when i get some time alone to myself after a show or early in the morning after
ekky, and i'll ask about how the interview went and if you got the job. you'll have to keep me updated on how things are going for you and i'll do the same; i'll tell you about the places we visit and the sights we see." he speaks to me as our heads lay on separate pillows and as he's nothing but a deep voice in the darkness of his bedroom, and then he intertwines his hand with mine.
"i'm going to miss you."
"and i'm going to be missing you, love. try not to miss me too much, okay?" he responds.
"i'll try, but i don't know how far i'll get with that."
"you'll be okay. you'll be too focused on your big writing job to be missing me as i hop to different countries performing." he puts his words lightly and i shake my head.
"i'm sure that you will be the busy one."
"you never know, jaims. some things happen in our lives out of nowhere either at the most convenient or inconvenient times." he mumbles into the darkness and a thought strikes me as i feel the warmth seeping into my hands from his that sit in my own.
"that's just how this happened for us, don't you think? we both were there at the music store at the same time and we just happened to bump into each other and say hi."
"yeah, i think that's exactly how it happened for us, but it was for the good, you know. sure, it didn't happen at the most ideal time with me going on tour soon, but things happen." he adds onto this while i feel his fingers move with mine and his thumb
ushes against the fleshy back of my hand.
"i wonder why we met and the reason all of this has happened. i've never met somebody famous and i haven't done any big things in life to be rewarded for."
"i don't think it matters so much why we met and why this has happened, but more that it has and that we're both happy because of it. jamie darling, you deserve to be loved like any other person on the face of this earth, and to be appreciated and to be treated like you're the best thing that has happened to a man." he shares his thoughts aloud as our hands mingle with the others.
"i certainly can't be the best thing that has happened to you. you're famous and the beatles are basically the most popular band around right now.." i trail off while i don't believe what he just said.
"well, we both said that we're a miracle that happened in the others life, didn't we?" he puts it in a different way and i smile in the dark at his words and his fingers slip from mine. he yawns.
the conversation is dropped there and we both bid goodnight to the other with yawns ending our sentences and i think of the whirlwind kind of day it has been today. i decide to not think about it all too much and how i wish i would've said something differently or had not said it at all, and i just lay there listening to his soft
eathing before i fall asleep too. today has tired me out alright.