7. Chapter 7 (1/2)

chapter 7: what to do?

i collapsed to a floor in a heap of emotions. i couldn't stop the waves of tears that had started streaming from my face. i was leaning against the floor sobbing, but then felt eric's strong arms as they crushed me tenderly to him. he made me look at him and then spoke,

"sookie, lover, i know this is difficult to take on board, but it is something i have no power over. either choice you make, you will be under my protection, but in public you will be treated very differently depending on what you choose."

i managed to stand and then found my voice,

"i have in the last few days given some thought to the fact that in the future i might agree to become a vampire, but i meant far in the future, not now! i can't believe this is happening. i don't know what to do. my mind is telling me so many things that are all contradicting each other."

eric hugged me close, then picked me up in a princess lift and spoke,

"lover, you do not have to make this decision right now, you have some time to think it over. come, let us go to bed."

6:00 am.

i was lying in eric's bed just after dawn had risen very restless. eric was out for the count in his freaky vampire slumber and i had no escape of all the worries on my mind. 'i haven't got a freaking clue what to do! i love eric, that is for sure, but i didn't think i would be making this decision so far down the line. one side i would be happy knowing i get to spend eternity with eric, but i would have to watch so many people die and i would never be able to enjoy the sun. there are so many pros and cons. this is not fair!' i got out of bed, put on one of eric's shirts because i had yet to move any of my clothes to eric's mansion, i then went downstairs. i padded into the kitchen and poured myself a glass of milk. as i was drinking it, i still couldn't shake the variety if problems in my head, being in eric's mansion didn't help. i the realised that in order to get some real thinking done, i had to get away from eric and his influence. i bounded up the staircase and into the master bedroom. i quickly redressed in my clothes i had come in from the day before. as i was about to leave, i looked back at eric and then went over and placed a light kiss on his sleeping face. i navigated around the house until i found the door to the garage and opened it. four beautiful sleek sports cars were parked next to each other. i then noticed the keys to the cars hanging on hooks near by. for some ironic reason, i was drawn to the blood red lamborghini at the far end of the garage, i grabbed the keys, got into the car, the ignition stared with a low rumble and i was off.

ring! ring

the sun had just gone down as i leant of the bonnet of the sports car looking over the mississippi lake. i knew exactly who it was and i nodded my head telling myself to answer the phone, it was time to tell him my decision. i tugged it out of my pocket and press the answer button. i put to my ear and said,

"hello, eric?"

a sensual male voice replied,

"lover, i was worried when you were not next to me when i awoke. where are you?"