1. Chapter 1 (1/2)

you knew you weren't normal when you were seven and obsessed over tv characters holding hands and being together in a way that reminded you of something parents do.

it wasn't until middle school that a certain friend gave you a manga and you discovered the world of romantic literature; you were a sap for gut-wrenching, tooth-decaying love.

it's now that you proudly refer to these couples as ships with friends who know what you're saying and don't judge you for doodling your favorite couples on paper reminiscent to a certain comic you're semi-hooked to.

your name is seeu and you've become somewhat of a 'real life shipper' in the sense that you love pairing up everyone with each other and seeing what works and what doesn't. it's gotten to the point that your 'shipping chart', a spiral notebook with the cover labelled 'math' (haha, as if you'd pay nearly as much attention to that subject as you would to this) has so many circles and dashes over names that you're planning on redoing it as soon as you have enough free time.

you don't know when it happened, but at some point in the school year hatsune miku and kagamine len became your otp and all you could find yourself doing in your spare time was doodling chibi's of them holding hands and just being the 'adorable cuties' you envision them to be. a week or so later of ultimate shipping you found out gum gum vroom vroom, codename gumi, made a romance club dedicated to helping the students of your high school get over their awkwardness and finally be with someone they liked. and so, with only a fee of five dollars that neru snatched out of your hand, you joined the club and became vice president! (turns out neru was the vice president but gave that job up in favor of being 'treasurer' -cough cough- stealing people's money -cough-)

it's a wonderful to make new friends, especially if they share your hobby! (well, only gumi and tei really shared your interest, the others were more or less there to waste time or because they were forced). you never remembered having as much fun in school as you did when you were in those club meetings, especially after they designated a time just to hear all about your new ships and judge if they could work or not.

you soon learned tei detested your otp and would rather have you ship herself with len. you also learned that day that you weren't the only one who thought she was yandere. seems like half the school came to that conclusion after a week of watching her drool over len (you were too busy shipping your otp to notice, sadly) even if more than half of those people had no idea what the word 'yandere' was.

you had your own ships centered around her, but you'd never tell lest she pull out those large pair of scissors she keeps in her backpack 'just in case' because 'they might come in handy'. you don't like dwelling on that subject, so you opt to look to gumi who said they would be the perfect first target for the club, much to tei and neru's vexation.

it seems neru likes him too, but you think her feelings towards the kagamine are centered more towards that one-sided rivalry between miku she always goes on about when said girl is mentioned. it's not like you'd say it out loud but you ship her with miku. not romantically of course, but more in a 'i-hate-you-i-love-you' sense that isn't so easy to explain outside of your head. the only one who knows about these secret ships you purposely skip over each meeting is gumi, the same girl who gave you your very first manga all those years ago.

there is one ship even she doesn't know exists, and that's your second otp! it consists of you and her in a platonic, 'super biffies!' style. it's not like it's a bad ship, and you're sure she'd understand it's not that kind of romance if you explained it, but it's best not to risk it and just keep that little otp hidden in the second to last page everyone believes is still empty.

you can't even imagine how gumi would react when she finds out that, after you found out she has this complex friendship with len that you like to call parasitism (they do only come together to take something from the other in a way that doesn't seem like mutualism), that you started shipping them. you're still not sure if you ship them romantically or platonically, which is alarming considering you always know which way your ships go, not to mention either way it develops it's going to mess with one of your top otp's. a part of you imagines gumi might laugh if she learns all of this, but even then you can never tell with her capricious nature.

so, at this exact moment, you find yourself glaring at len's stub of a ponytail as you walk towards the cafeteria, wondering what exactly it is that makes him so versatile in your charts.

why is he so unhealthily loved? he's not even that cute.

well, okay, he's pretty dang adorable, but still! what happened to girls loving the sexy type?

what's next? are you going to ship yourself with him?