1. Chapter 1 (1/2)

sorry i've been awol, my internet was unfortunately disconnected. did you miss me?

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"did you want something, bertrand?" vlad huffed. his tutor had pulled him aside after dinner but had, as yet, failed to give any indication as to why. "'cos i've got homework to do, if we're not training..." bertrand seemed unusually reluctant to speak, and vlad was left to make his own deductions. "...okay, what have i done?"

bertrand sighed. "your father caught me in the it room the other day, checking my emails." you could have knocked the chosen one down with a feather."you get emails?""yes. i have contacts all over the world; i don't like to be out of the loop. email is the quickest way to communicate. anyway, he asked me to check if anyone else in the school was accessing anything he should know about. and, as your regent..." bertrand seemed irritable, but vlad was impatient; he really did have work to do and some sleep would be nice."he gets to boss you around, yeah, i know. is this going somewhere?""i found your

owser history, vlad. is there anything you'd like to discuss?""not with you."bertrand raised an eye

ow. "oh? don't you trust me?""oh, of course," vlad mustered as much sarcasm as he could and sent it his teacher's way. "you've never betrayed me."

it was a low blow, but bertrand took it in his stride."be that as it may, it's my duty as your tutor to make sure you're getting any support you need, or inform your father if you need something else." no matter how casually he said it, they both knew that was a threat. vlad glared at him for a moment, but staring down bertrand was never really an option. it was if he could just choose not to have eyelids."...fine, we'll talk. what exactly are you referring to?" he almost managed to keep the note of anxiety out of his voice. if bertrand noticed it, he didn't comment.

"well, i found the wikihow pages you'd looked up, to start with." he paused for a moment. "i didn't know you were questioning-""yeah, well, i'm not questioning anything anymore, so you can stop worrying. i know. it's why erin and i split up, but she doesn't know the reason yet. and dad's gonna be angry, but i can't help it. i just... need some time to work out how to tell him." bertrand nodded.

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"so, did you conclude...?" vlad sighed. bertrand clearly wasn't going to just leave it be."i'm pretty sure i'm gay, yeah." as he said it, he seemed to relax slightly, like a weight had been lifted. "and i'm alright with that. it took some thinking about but really, it makes sense of a lot of things."bertrand nodded, frowning slightly. "robin?"vlad shrugged. "i don't know. maybe a little."

vampiregeek robin? that you? it's vlad count, from stokely. remember me? just thought i'd look you up, check in.vladc vlad! long time no see, mate. where did you disappear to, i thought you were dead.vampiregeek just had to move on, dad got work somewhere else. not dead exactly!vladc yeah. well, could've called, but great to hear from you now. what's going on?vampiregeek not much, dealing with some stuff and wanted a friendly ear.vladc sounds serious, you ok?vampiregeek. yeah, i think i am actually. what have you been up to since i saw you?vladc this and that, new vampire film out looks pretty good. you coming near stokely soon? we could go.vladc vlad? you offline?vladc yeah, just... reply when you're back, or whatever.

"i suppose you know i got back in touch." bertrand said nothing, which of course meant he did. "and he said we should hang out, and... yeah, it freaked me out a bit. but i don't fancy him or anything. it would just be weird, 'cos of the mind wipe. besides, i'm not going back to stokely."at that, bertrand did look surprised. "it's not h-? i mean... so then there's the dating site. do you really think that was a good idea?"vlad rolled his eyes. "i didn't even put a picture up – for obvious reasons – or my real name. lied about my age and everything, so you can't complain. one of the wikihow articles just said that joining something like gaydar and having a look around might help me work out if i found guys attractive. so i did."

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"judging by your list of 'likes', you found someone attractive on there. did you contact anyone?""what? no, there were attractive guys on there, sure, but i didn't really fancy any of them." vlad

ushed off his tutor's concern. "anything else private of mine that you want to talk about?" bertrand frowned, staring off into the middle distance for a moment before meeting vlad's gaze."why didn't you come and talk to me about all this? is it really because of what happened with sethius?"

the chosen one blinked. "is that what all this is about? me not running to you with every problem? look, what i said earlier was harsh. i don't blame you for what happened with sethius. i just couldn't talk to you about this, that's all. i didn't talk to anybody about it, it's not personal."his tutor's eyes were fixed on a point just over vlad's right shoulder. "you talked to strangers online."

yahoo! answershome all categories family & relationships other - family & relationships open questioncoghv51: so this is kind of a long post but i really need some advice and i don't know who else to talk to. i'm hoping you can help me, internet.i'm about to turn 18, and i have a tutor helping me with some a-level stuff, and some self defence on the side. he's not an official tutor or anything, he just helps me out and my dad lets him stay with us in return. he's not that much older than me, really. anyway, lately i realised i really fancy him. and he seems to understand me more than, for example, my girlfriend, who i really need to

eak up with because i'm pretty sure i'm gay.this tutor... well, once i turn 18 i don't know how long he'll stick around or what's going to happen, and i really want to know if we could have some kind of a relationship, you know. i have no idea if he even likes guys – i have no idea if he likes anyone, to be honest, he's a bit of a workaholic – but he's driving me mad. he's really, really attractive and i've had to avoid sparring practice for weeks because it just gets embarrassing... ok i've gone off-topic.basically... what do you think i should do? do i ask him out, or tell him how i feel or whatever... or ignore these feelings and hope they go away?

allergictosunlight: i have a girlfriend too and i think i might be gay. how can you tell if you really are or if it's just that she's not that hot? (-15 votes)